Trusting Gods plan

I am here in PA. I live in a small town called Factoryville. It looks like your typical  northeastern town. Its been really chilly here. Its been the 50s and 40s at night and raining a lot.

I  live  in a house with 6 other people and one bathroom:) We will see how long that last because 5 of them are women. I do live with a family! There is Jennifer(the mom) and she has four children, Amy 24, Bethel, 20, Ruthie 19 and David 17. Also Bethel friend Carrie lives here. So there is a full house and never a dull  moment.

I have been really homesick. I never been homesick before. When I left for Ethiopia I never felt this way.  I miss my family and my church family a lot.

Been wondering why God called me here or what my purpose is. Maybe he called me to here just to test my  faith or for me to understand Gods love for me even more. Maybe he is just equipping me for my next journey on the mission field. One thing I know is I have to keep trusting him with my life even though I want to get in my car and drive back to Tennessee. I know that God knows whats best for me and I want to fulfill his dreams for my life.

I got a part time job at the local supermarket:)

Please pray that I can find a full time job and that God  continues to give me his strength for this journey. Pray that God gives me the opportunity to use me while I am here.

Missing my church family!!!

Also, I want everyone to know that I haven't stop preparing for a trip back to Ethiopia and a trip to Kenya. I'm  hoping maybe by September God will make a way for me to go to the place my heart longs to go. So far I have raised $600 dollars. I just need to raise $2,400 more!!  Thank you to all that donate to me and believing in what God has called me to do:) I can't wait to get back on the field and fight for children souls.

I'm moving...

Well, Everyone is going to be shocked but..... I am moving!

 

I am moving to Factoryville, Penn. It is near to Scranton ( yes, that's right all you "Office" fans) .

Its all the sudden, crazy and fast, but I know that God is calling me there.

About 6 month ago I met some people on Facebook who as much as me LOVE Ethiopia. We began a great friendship. Mike who is a pastor at Grace Fellowship and Liv is his lovely wife and they are parents to 3 beautiful girls. One is adopted from Ethiopia and they are in the process of adopting a 10 year old boy from Ethiopia. We started are friendship with a weekly bible study (which I Skype for that). There are no words to describe what these 2 have helped me through. Coming home from Ethiopia was so hard and was very draining on me. They were willing to equip me and disciple me. Through them God has taught me so much. Together we have been praying to see where God is calling me.

I have been living in Manchester, Tenn just unable to get a job. It really does a toll on you when you can't get hired on at a job anywhere. I became very sad because I was uncertain that of what God was wanting me to do. Friday I went applied at another job and I didn't get. I just couldn't understand why wouldn't God give me a job. I prayed about it and this is the verse that came to my mind.

" You have stayed here long enough at this mountain!" Deuteronomy 1:6

I feel like God is telling me to GO where he has called me. My friends in PA have been inviting me to come live there for months . So I am taking a leap of Faith and going where God is leading me. I know nothing of future or what it hold but I know God does. God is always there taking care of his children. I know God has great plans for me. 

Now, I bet your wondering where I will stay... Great question!! 

Let me introduce you to......

Bethel and Carrie. These to lovely ladies attended the weekly bible study that I attend through Skype. We have began a friendship. These two have a huge heart for mission and love Ethiopia just as much I do. They have such open hearts to wherever God is calling them into the mission field. Bethel has offered me a place to sleep until I can get my feet on the ground.  They have been so encouraging and loving towards me and I am so grateful for them.

So this Wednesday I am taking the 14 hour drive to PA and starting a new chapter. Please pray for me because this is very hard and scary for me. I am yet again leaving everything I know and going into the unknown. Praying this is another door that will get me back to Africa

Lately...

I think since I have been home I have cried more then I have in my life and felt more uncertain of the future. Ever since I gave up my life for Christ to go where God called me, my life has never been the same.
Being a Christian is not an easy road, but a road I would run down million times.

Lately...

I have been unable to get a job since I got back from Ethiopia. Uncertain why. Weird.

Wondering where I belong here.

Bill are piling up.

Lonely

I miss having friends.

Praying God brings friends into my life that we could change the world with.

Dreaming of Africa everyday.

Wondering who my husband is.

Made new friends in Pennsylvania. Who have helped me through a lot of tears.  I hope I can visit them soon.

Enjoying spending time with my family everyday and watching my nieces and nephews grow up.

Learned this past month that I truly don't understand the LOVE Christ has for ME. Crazy since I teach and tell so many how much God loves them, right. I believe that it comes from my childhood, being rejected from my father, abuse I have dealt with as a child. Always feeling a burden and disappointment etc  I never realized this, but this is how I though Christ thought of me. Its so hard because I wish I could feels Gods tangible love.

Praying for a revelation and wounds to be reveled, so I can begin to heal and become a better me. Needing all the prayer and help I can get.

One thing I have been doing is listening to music and repeat words over and over to myself  telling myself this is how God feels about me.

One song (it actually on my playlist) "Make you feel my love. " The Adele version, of course! Its a perfect title for my situation. I had originally put it on my playlist because it was the last song I heard in the van on my way to the airport and sitting next to Birhane, who was shedding so many tears.  I remember thinking I hope that Birhane knows how much I love him and how hard I tried to show a Gods love to him and all the street kids. I really think the song is meant for me. All the ways Jesus try's  to show us how much he loves us. Here are the lyrics...

                                                                                    "Make You Feel My Love"

When the rain is blowing in your face,

And the whole world is on your case,

I could offer you a warm embrace

To make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,

And there is no one there to dry your tears,

I could hold you for a million years

To make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,

But I would never do you wrong.

I've known it from the moment that we met,

No doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,

I'd go crawling down the avenue.

No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do

To make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea

And on the highway of regret.

The winds of change are blowing wild and free,

You ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.

Nothing that I wouldn't do.

Go to the ends of the Earth for you,

To make you feel my love

To make you feel my love

Perfect!!  Just soak these words in from this song!

God wants our love!