Thursday, December 6, 2012

Life right now...

WOW!! it has been a long time since I have written a post. I am soooo sorry to the people who want to know whats going on in my journey. I honestly can say my computer has been broken and life since I have got back has been a bit crazy.

 I flew to Oklahoma as soon I got back to the states to say goodbye to a women who played a grandmother in my life for 19 years. Very hard time to say goodbye to someone who has been in your life since you were 9.  I am so blessed that I got to sit with her and share my stories of Ethiopia and what God is doing. One thing is she got to meet Birhane on skype and see the faces of the kids I am fighting for. When I left Oklahoma I was at peace with saying goodbye or really its not goodbye, but I see you later, Grandma:) Today she went to be with Jesus.

I been in Manchester for a few weeks really trying to put my mind back in pieces. My 5 months in Ethiopia were the hardest I experienced. It was a very painful time. I never really had time to recuperate since I got back. It literally felt like time stop since I got back, meaning everything was the same. People and there routines never change but I had. Its hard going on this journey alone. I mean I know I have Jesus, we share this journey and burden together but nobody to share with. I talk about the kids or a situation and people cut you off or there not interested in what you have to say.The whole time I am screaming in my mind "he is real person with real problems who needs your help, come back!" I went to church one night an watched people throw sooo much food away. Tears were welling up and I had the worst sick feeling of wanting to throw up and all the while thinking of kids names who would do anything to dig through that trashcan. WHY as Americans are we so wasteful? We have everything we need and still want more. So all that to be said adjusting always is a bit difficult. Also adjusting to showers, washing clothes, outside(clean), even going to the toilet(I still look for a trashcan to put my toilet paper in, lol) getting in my car to drive and even fast food.

God is doing some crazy things since I got back. I met a girl, Elsa that lives 10 miles from me who was adopted from Ethiopia when she was 15. Her story is Amazing!! I hoping she can teach me more Amharic while I am here:) My friends Nate and Jenn are in Ethiopia spending time with the kids right now, checking up on them and ministering to them in anyway they can.  I am so thankful  for Jenn and Nate for wanting to help fight for these kids with me. Also, not sure right now, but there might be a possibility that I might have people come with me next time to minister, still praying for that. I do plan on returning to Ethiopia in June if I have all my funds by then. I'm hoping for a 6 month stay this time.

Needing prayer right now for me to grow so much more as a missionary, spiritually and mentally. Prayer for the funds to come for my return, for a job( I need a job so very soon), for God to keep opening up doors to minister in Ethiopia. Prayers for the kids to find Jesus as there personal Lord an Savior, for the holy spirit to speak into their lives. They need prayer for the attitudes and mind and for the enemy in Jesus name flee from there lives. Pray for something radical for all of them.

Don't worry there are going to be stories. Thank you to everyone for the love and support you have given me. I hope your still out there to share the journey with:)

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